Actually, Now That I Think About It....
Yesterday I was looking at Nice Partner's calendar to see what's going on this week. I noticed that on Thursday it says "Yogurt's Annual Review Due."
WHAT?! So of course with my pessimistic attitude (combined with my most recent screwup last month of very poorly arranging a multi-county deposition) I'm confident that Nice Partner will fill out the review form, look it over, and then think to himself, "Wow, Green REALLY sucks! I'm a partner - why am I putting up with this shit? Gay HR Guy should get me someone better right away." And I'll be fired on Friday.
I feel like I should be looking for a new job.
WHAT?! So of course with my pessimistic attitude (combined with my most recent screwup last month of very poorly arranging a multi-county deposition) I'm confident that Nice Partner will fill out the review form, look it over, and then think to himself, "Wow, Green REALLY sucks! I'm a partner - why am I putting up with this shit? Gay HR Guy should get me someone better right away." And I'll be fired on Friday.
I feel like I should be looking for a new job.
posted by Green at 11/08/2006 08:02:00 AM
10 Comments:
Or maybe they're gonna give you a promotion. It kinda happened to me last week, sorta... Anyway, what recipe did I owe you?
Michael
http://makeminemike.blogspot.com
Did you actually get officially reprimanded for the screwup? Did it get all documented and filed and made a part of your permanent record?
If not, it's not going to get you fired. Chill out, have some bottled water.
(((((hugs))))))
1. Even if you're as bad an employee as you think (and I don't believe it), you are still better than 98% of the people looking for a job like yours.
2. You care. This puts you WAY above everybody else.
3. You probably learned from your mistake and won't do THAT again.
4. If you were so good that you NEVER made mistakes, you'd be asking for a raise and/or looking for a better paying job.
If you need more encoragement, let me know, I can BS all day.
Patti, I got a stern talking-to, but as far as I know, nothing was written down. Your bottled water comment was the funniest I've gotten in a very long time. If I gave away prizes, you'd get one.
No, no, no, no. Reverse that thought - grab it back and stomp on it.
Thinking positive will make you look more confident and professional, not remind him of your one screw-up. You are more than that one bad day.
And seriously. Who in their right mind would leave himself surrounded by all those nutjobs you work with?
Good luck tomorrow.
Just tossing my two cents in for support. You'll be fine. Just remember to act confident even if you're shaking inside. If you act confident and in control despite how you feel, other people will take their cue from you.
Not be a arrogant blowhard, just calm and confident.
You are going to be great, and are definitely not going to need a new job. Just think about how badly some of the attorneys have screwed up- and they still have jobs after doing stuff much worse than not arranging a dep perfectly. No worries.
I had a great bit of wisdom for you, but I lost it. So I'll just say this:
Start listening your faithful commenters already. We're pretty smart people - and modest, too. ;) You are smart, capable, and valuable to your employer. You will not get fired for having a bad day. If that was all it took, don't you think LEL and her annoying habits would have been out of there long ago?
My prediction for what he'll say in your review is some praise, some criticism, a COL (maybe more) raise, a request for feedback, and a have a nice day. He will assure you he appreciates what you do so that you won't get pissed and leave him at the grandma's mercy. He will tell you that you need to work on this or that because he feels like he should say something about improving your work even if he can't really think of something specific to gripe about. He will offer a little bit more money - they don't sound so cheap that they screw over good employees - unless it was an absolutely horrible fiscal year and he can't afford it. He will ask if you have anything to share, comments, ideas, etc. I don't know him, so you'd know better whether he'll really be interested or if it's a token gesture to make you feel involved. Then he will happily usher you out of his office, close the door, and sigh in relief that he's got another review out of the way. On to more important stuff without another thought to it.
You'll be fine, but I'll think good thoughts for you anyway.
Have they managed to replace the Drunken Granny yet? I think that if they were to make a list of Staff We Should Fire, LEL's name would be far ahead of yours. After all, Nice Partner likes you, right? And you learned from the deposition snafu and expressed remorse? Try to focus on the positives about your job.
Good luck.
I agree with Sparkling Cipher. Employee reviews are the 2nd hardest thing a manager has to do in any business. (The hardest thing is to fire someone, unless it is "for cause" like stealing, fighting...) The actual amount of your raise, YES you will ge a raise, is probably reflective of what they think they have to give you to keep you as opposed to what you're really worth. And yes, when the meeting is over, the partner will probably exhale and say "thank goodness I got through another one".
BTW - if your firm was really interested in using an annual review to actually provide valuable feedback to help employee dvelopment, they'd give you some notice prior to the meeting and ask you to do a self evaluation and come prepared with what you feel are your strengths, accomplishments and areas you would like to further develop.
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