How Old Are You?
I am 29. I work for two guys. One is in his 40's and the other is in his late 30's. One of the baby attorneys LEL works for is TWENTY SEVEN YEARS OLD. That would be two years younger than I am. That would be 80 years younger than LEL.
A grandma down the hall is secretary to an attorney who is one year younger than I am. This attorney is married. People younger than I am are married. That seems so bizarre to me. I know that really, it's just because I don't feel nearly mature enough for something as hugely serious as marriage. I watch Punk'd, I eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, I still wear the sweatshirts I got in 1994...
Obviously LEL and I don't have a warm, fuzzy relationship that encourages me to have a chat with her over lunch about how she feels, working for someone younger than she is. But I'd love to know.
Because to be honest, it would make me VERY uncomfortable. It's okay that I'm secretary to someone older than I am. But for someone younger than me to be more successful? That fucks with my mind.
Kind of the same way it fucks with my mind to see someone famous (in the good way, not in the Lohan way) who is not yet 21. How did they get there, and I'm ... just... here? What the hell have I been doing with my life?
And really, if one part of my life was just ehh, like the professional part, but personally, I was happily married and had a kid or something, that'd be fine with me. Or, if I'd done something impressive with all this time I didn't spend in school becoming a lawyer (or anything), like traveled around the world, or ... anything, I wouldn't feel this way (I assume).
But today, it's just bumming me out that people younger than I am have gotten further than I have. I imagine this will get worse the day my doctor is younger than me.
A grandma down the hall is secretary to an attorney who is one year younger than I am. This attorney is married. People younger than I am are married. That seems so bizarre to me. I know that really, it's just because I don't feel nearly mature enough for something as hugely serious as marriage. I watch Punk'd, I eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, I still wear the sweatshirts I got in 1994...
Obviously LEL and I don't have a warm, fuzzy relationship that encourages me to have a chat with her over lunch about how she feels, working for someone younger than she is. But I'd love to know.
Because to be honest, it would make me VERY uncomfortable. It's okay that I'm secretary to someone older than I am. But for someone younger than me to be more successful? That fucks with my mind.
Kind of the same way it fucks with my mind to see someone famous (in the good way, not in the Lohan way) who is not yet 21. How did they get there, and I'm ... just... here? What the hell have I been doing with my life?
And really, if one part of my life was just ehh, like the professional part, but personally, I was happily married and had a kid or something, that'd be fine with me. Or, if I'd done something impressive with all this time I didn't spend in school becoming a lawyer (or anything), like traveled around the world, or ... anything, I wouldn't feel this way (I assume).
But today, it's just bumming me out that people younger than I am have gotten further than I have. I imagine this will get worse the day my doctor is younger than me.
posted by Green at 4/10/2006 10:34:00 PM
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I am 35 and still eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches!!
I know where you are coming from though.
I watched the Cards/Cubs game Sunday, and they said that the rookie pitcher who made his ML debut that night was only 23. I turned to my boyfriend's sister and said, "We're 3 years older, make less than $50,000 a year between us and have never been on TV, and this guy gets to play catch for more money than we'll probably ever see. I feel like a failure." She frowned at me and said, "Shut up, at least you have a fiance. I get to go home to a cat."
It's all relative.
Right there with you baby!!
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tell me about it!
I noticed the dr's were all younger than me about three years ago. Last month I took my sons girlfriend (and child) to the gym with us. When I picked up MY son from the childcare, the attendants commented on my "grandson"... sigh
When I worked my last real job - a dot com in SF, everyone except the VP's their assistants and the facilities guy were younger than me and made way more money than me. That sucked.
Hi, GY.
For years, almost all the people I have any kind of relationship with -- including bosses, clients, people I make music with, friends, coworkers, cyber-acquaintances -- are younger than me. (Oh, and also my doctor.) There are a couple of exceptional exceptions.
You know how sensitive I am about my age, but somehow this aspect -- working for someone younger -- doesn't bother me. Maybe associating with people who are younger helps me indulge in the fantasy that I'm only as old as I feel.
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