Hurting Hurts

This week I hurt somebody accidentally. The person I hurt has such a big heart and a forgiving nature that it's possible I am more upset about it than she is. I thought she might forgive me because she's just that type of person, but I was fully prepared to not be forgiven at all. I don't think I fully understood what it means to be a forgiving person until she talked to me. I never saw this forgiving someone, and truly doing it, in action before. I am in awe of her ability to forgive. Really, in awe. And I'm quite a jaded person. It's very rare for me to be in awe of anything.

Although I have done everything I can think of to resolve the hurt I've caused, I am still very upset with myself for having caused it in the first place. I wish I had gone with my gut, because my gut knew better.

I cannot remember the last time I was so overwhelmed by a feeling of guilt. I am just so sorry. If I could do anything else to fix it, I would.

Thursday, April 14, 2005 in People | Permalink | Comments (1) | TrackBack (0)