Please Don't Leave
9am came home from work today to say that his boss moved the office from the Financial District out to Menlo Park. We talked about it for a while, and 9am told me his boss has agreed to pay his commuting costs. 9am claims that as long as it takes an hour or less, he's fine with that. I suggested he ask about working from home one or two days each week.
I am terrified 9am will commute for one week and then decide to move out there. Then I will have to scramble to find a roommate. Each time I have had to find a new roommate, I have never been able to do it before the old roommate moves out. I have always had to carry the full rent on my own for at least one month, if not more.
While I might be able to talk the leasing company into letting me out of my lease without charging me three months of rent if I point out my roommate is leaving and I have no job (which they do not know, since I had a job when I moved in), there is no landlord in their right mind who would ever rent to me without a steady income. Plus I can't afford to pay for a move anyway.
To sum things up, I can't afford to stay and I can't afford to leave. To say that every day I hope to die would be a gross understatement. I feel like a completely unproductive member of society, who is merely a drain on the economy. Every single morning I wake up sad to discover I didn't magically die in my sleep. Every single day on the news we hear about one more company shutting down, how many tens of thousands of people are being let go. There's this bailout worth hundreds of billions of dollars, and none of it is going to help me at all. There has never been a moment in my adult life where I feel more stuck than I am now.
Please send 9am "Staying in San Francisco is worth the commute" vibes.
I am terrified 9am will commute for one week and then decide to move out there. Then I will have to scramble to find a roommate. Each time I have had to find a new roommate, I have never been able to do it before the old roommate moves out. I have always had to carry the full rent on my own for at least one month, if not more.
While I might be able to talk the leasing company into letting me out of my lease without charging me three months of rent if I point out my roommate is leaving and I have no job (which they do not know, since I had a job when I moved in), there is no landlord in their right mind who would ever rent to me without a steady income. Plus I can't afford to pay for a move anyway.
To sum things up, I can't afford to stay and I can't afford to leave. To say that every day I hope to die would be a gross understatement. I feel like a completely unproductive member of society, who is merely a drain on the economy. Every single morning I wake up sad to discover I didn't magically die in my sleep. Every single day on the news we hear about one more company shutting down, how many tens of thousands of people are being let go. There's this bailout worth hundreds of billions of dollars, and none of it is going to help me at all. There has never been a moment in my adult life where I feel more stuck than I am now.
Please send 9am "Staying in San Francisco is worth the commute" vibes.
Labels: 9am, Cash Flow, City Livin, I'm Hurt
posted by Green at 1/30/2009 10:57:00 PM
7 Comments:
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Good vibes.
That is totally sucky...IF it happens. I am still at a loss about that bailout thing. Isn't kind of like treating the symptom, instead of taking care of the cause of the problem?
Fingers crossed.
Have you talked to your brother and/or your parents about this at all? Based on what I've read here, I am quite sure they would rather help you in some way than see you homeless and/or dead. Perhaps they could loan you rent money? Help you find a job in their town & let you stay in an extra room for a short while? I know it's hard on your pride to ask family for help, but I know if it were my daughter in your situation, I'd want to help (if I could).
Meanwhile, I'm sending good vibes your way.
Hang in there, Green.
Yes Green, please hang tough! Good vibrations heading south west all day from your friends in Canada.
Thankfully, the commute to Menlo Park really isn't all that long. CalTrain from King Street to Menlo Park can take as little as 36 minutes on the express. I'm crossing my fingers and toes for you.
Dear Green;
I am rooting for you... please don't give up! Things will get better. I'll be sending good vibes from up canada way too! I'm not super religious or anything but I'll send up a message to the man upstairs on your behalf.
you have my good vibes. i kind of wish i could take 9 a.m.'s job off his hands and help you out that way :P but short of that, vibes you got.
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