Dejected
This morning I applied for an awesome job. It's at a firm I've temped at before. The attorneys I worked with loved me; partners even requested me more than once. Normally I just apply for any job I'm qualified for, because I am not one of those people who believes in bliss, or following it. Work is for earning money, not for fulfilling my soul. A pollyanna may say "what if work could be for both?" and to that I answer that for me, it can't be. The things that fascinate me are not fields I can work in.
This job I applied for today though? It would tap into a couple of my strengths. It involves travel, and while I have no interest in strangers feeling me up in airports, legal secretaries never travel for work which is why that would be super exciting.
The reality is though, I won't get this job. Why? Simply because history - specifically the last three years of it - dictates that nobody will hire me. I am never going to get a job again. This month I have only been able to get two interviews.
It's like I am standing on the rooftop of one building, all the jobs are on the rooftop of the building next to mine, but jumping simply hasn't been invented yet. So I can only stand and look, but can't ever get there. I can see everyone else on the other rooftop, scurrying around, passing around important papers, going on trips to other rooftops, buying things other rooftops are selling. But none of that is for. Just for everyone else. I am surrounded by rooftops.
This job I applied for today though? It would tap into a couple of my strengths. It involves travel, and while I have no interest in strangers feeling me up in airports, legal secretaries never travel for work which is why that would be super exciting.
The reality is though, I won't get this job. Why? Simply because history - specifically the last three years of it - dictates that nobody will hire me. I am never going to get a job again. This month I have only been able to get two interviews.
It's like I am standing on the rooftop of one building, all the jobs are on the rooftop of the building next to mine, but jumping simply hasn't been invented yet. So I can only stand and look, but can't ever get there. I can see everyone else on the other rooftop, scurrying around, passing around important papers, going on trips to other rooftops, buying things other rooftops are selling. But none of that is for. Just for everyone else. I am surrounded by rooftops.
Labels: Potential Depth, Pounding the pavement, Rage Against the Green
posted by Green at 1/24/2011 11:24:00 PM
8 Comments:
Am I going to be the one to have to say this???
Why not? What makes anyone else more qualified or better for the job than you? Just because you haven't worked, doesn't mean that this isn't the job that you get. Or if it isn't, then the next one could be. If you keep thinking this way, who WOULD hire you? You'll go into each interview with that look in your eye. That quiet desperation that doesn't look good on anyone. And yes, you're probably (okay, definitely) desperate for work. But you go into those rooms and already decide that you won't get the job, then you never will.
Hope is a mean bitch sometimes, but it's all we have. Don't give up on yourself.
I haven't.
Totally agree with Go Nicole. I believe in you too Green.
Dude, you got some pretty good advice above. I'm still convinced you're due for something to happen in your life that is so great that you walk around for days all giggly happy.
+1 to everything they said.
If you're comfortable with this, call the attorneys to let them know you've applied for the job and would love to work with them permanently. Maybe they can direct personnel to make you one of the finalists.
If they know you and they love working for you, then yes, maybe it's okay to get your hopes up a little bit. Just a bit.
I agree that if they know you've applied, you've got a /much/ better chance.
Will keep my fingers crossed.
This economy and job situation is tough on a lot of people. There are so many applicants for each job, it is hard to stand out in the crowd. You are not alone on that rooftop. As the economy improves, I can't help thinking that at least one good thing will happen: (1) they'll invent jumping and you'll learn how to do it; and (2) you'll build a skybridge to where you want to be. Please don't give up on yourself.
Completely understand how frustrating the whole job search can be. My husband and I have both had to deal with it. He spent months with no callbacks. He even got scammed into working a day with no pay for a sketchy marketing company...they told him it was a shadow day, then had him doing door-to-door sales for 8hrs for free! Not cool. Thankfully he landed a teaching job last month. Of course his new job comes with a BIG pay decrease from his last teaching position. Once you factor in the $400/mth in gas spent on his hour-long commute, he could have worked at the Burger King around the corner and ended up bringing home the same amount of money. Luckily he likes his job so there's hope that later on he'll be able to advance and the financial sacrifice will all be worth it.
The economy is definitely crazy right now. Way to many people competing for the same job. You can't even get a job at McDonald's these days! It's hard coming to terms with the fact that it may take months/years to find a job and that once found, it may mean a big change in finances. Still, I agree with everyone else so far...eventually things will work out. Just keep on keeping on! That's about all you can do right now. One day when you're all settled, this will all just be a funny story.
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