Please Don't Leave
I am terrified 9am will commute for one week and then decide to move out there. Then I will have to scramble to find a roommate. Each time I have had to find a new roommate, I have never been able to do it before the old roommate moves out. I have always had to carry the full rent on my own for at least one month, if not more.
While I might be able to talk the leasing company into letting me out of my lease without charging me three months of rent if I point out my roommate is leaving and I have no job (which they do not know, since I had a job when I moved in), there is no landlord in their right mind who would ever rent to me without a steady income. Plus I can't afford to pay for a move anyway.
To sum things up, I can't afford to stay and I can't afford to leave. To say that every day I hope to die would be a gross understatement. I feel like a completely unproductive member of society, who is merely a drain on the economy. Every single morning I wake up sad to discover I didn't magically die in my sleep. Every single day on the news we hear about one more company shutting down, how many tens of thousands of people are being let go. There's this bailout worth hundreds of billions of dollars, and none of it is going to help me at all. There has never been a moment in my adult life where I feel more stuck than I am now.
Please send 9am "Staying in San Francisco is worth the commute" vibes.